So I can not deny, I have been a total mess the last two weeks. I had to sell everything I own, leave my job, friends, etc., to come do my PhD here in the UK. I also had to take out an outrageous about of student loans. A big part of leaving everything I knew was a leap of faith. As I go into year two of my three year program, I am having to re-sign up for all of my loans. From my first year, the loans, which paid for my tuition, came to- WAIT FOR IT- $59,000. I have TWO MORE YEARS OF THIS. My boyfriend and best friend at home have been hearing me cry, whine, stress and FREAK OUT about this.
I knew I was getting into insane debt when I came here, but a large part of any leap of faith, of going against the grain, is sometimes just JUMPING, and KNOWING that SOMETHING will catch you on the other side.
One thing that keeps me going as I breath into a paper bag with freaking-out-ness is my google alerts. I have them set so that anything having to do with Joy Division, that be tattoos, tribute bands, the band itself or Ian Curtis, shows up in my google mail. There is a lot of crap, as one can imagine. But sometimes you will get a gem- such as this video below- the Stiff Kittens, a tribute band from Toledo, Ohio. Yes, Toledo, Ohio.
The reach of Joy Division is like the little engine that could- stretching and inspiring and changing lives. I hope I can some how transform all of that insane debt into a similar phenomenia.